Sunrise, Sunset

1. You are amazing and I love you more than I have ever loved anyone. I fall more in love with you every day. You are the kindest, funniest, most inspiring person I have ever known. You make me so incredibly happy, my love. You are my lover and my best friend and I hope that never changes.

2. You are the best friend a girl could ask for. You saved me when I couldn’t save myself. You are always there for me when I need you. You are so cool and so funny and so incredibly talented. You are going to do amazing things with your life. I love hanging out with you. Let’s move to New York!

3. I know we don’t always get along. I know we fight a lot. But that’s because we’re so similar and we love each other so much but don’t know how to show it all the time. You are my best friend and my rival. I like us. We help each other grow. And I can always come to you. That means a lot to me.

4. You are my rock. You are my lighthouse. You are home to me. I never feel at home until you are there. You are funny and strong and smart and I admire you so much, you don’t even realize. If I can grow up to be half the person you are I will be so proud. Thank you for everything you’ve taught me.

5. You are a nincompoop, but i love you more than I’ve probably ever told you. I will always love you and always be here for you. I want you in my life always. Don’t be a stranger. Don’t move far away. I want us to be close. I want us to experience life together. I want to be the best big sister I can be to you.

6. You are selfish and self-centered and fake. You only come to me when your life sucks. As soon as you are okay you ignore me and flake out on me and pretend we were never friends. Then when things fall apart again you come crawling back. I am not your blanket. I love you, so I will never mind saving you. But just so you know, you treat me like crap. You are a sucky friend.

7. You broke my heart. You always made me feel bad about myself. You always acted like I was dumb, immature, and inferior to you. You were selfish. You used me for your own selfish lustful ends under the pretense of loving me. Then you told me you never loved me that way. You destroyed me. But I am a fool for letting you destroy me, for thinking I deserved to be treated the way you treated me. I’ll never make that mistake again. Thanks for teaching me a great life lesson.

8. You made me the person I am today. You took this shy, 12 year old high-schooler and made me outgoing and comfortable with myself. You guided me through my high school years. You were the smartest, coolest, awesomest girl I ever met. But then something happened. And you destroyed yourself. You have all the potential in the world. Please believe that and start moving forward again. Don’t waste your life. You are amazing.

9. You start too much drama. You are so fake sometimes. You have all of these presumptions about the world. You also only talk to me when you need my advice. Then you complain about people who do that to you. It’s stupid. I don’t think I will miss you next year. Any of you.

10. I loved you so much. I wish you were still here. I cried so hard when I found out you had died. I wish I hadn’t fallen asleep last time I had visited you. I wish we had talked more. Taken one more walk at the duck pond. Gone to the store one more time. Spent one more holiday together. I miss you so much. I pretend you aren’t really gone because I can’t even handle it. I wanted you to be at my wedding. I wanted you to meet my children. I want you to be here. So much. Why did you have to leave?